So , I am going to try and backtrack , and start at the beginning .
I wrote about how I was told the Johnathon was cheating on me . That entry is already posted and I feel it is so accurate as to how I felt . It hurts me to think more about it .
We solved it .
My brother came to town from England . He was supposed to have me pick him up Friday from St Louis , which is two hours away . Then he decides , his ex girlfriend is going to pick him up and she and his best friend from Illinois will bring him Saturday , by noon . They would stay Saturday , Sunday or at the absolute latest , Monday . Then , we would spend the week hanging out and leave Thursday for Tenn . My great grandmothers 90th (!) birthday . How amazing .
Well , I was already very tired emotionally after the cruel accusations .
Turns out , my brother and his ex girlfriend decided they were going to wake up at nine (which is when he would have to leave to make it here by twelve . Which they promised countless times , would be when they got in .) They go to Ihop and claim that they wont be much later than twelve . Lets be honest , obviously that's not true . So I get furious . He tells me "I didn't know it was such a strict time schedule ." Seriously ? I said "it is about the decency to show up when you promise ." Not to mention that they completely quit talking to me so I had no idea what was going on . They showed up at 3:30 . I had to work at 4:00 .
So , I get over that and decide , we'll spend a wonderful week with family anyway . First , it turns out that only his ex girlfriend and him are there . He turns in to a competitive , rude person and does not tell me anything . Monday comes around .
The X is showing no signs of leaving . She told my friend that she was supposed to leave Monday , but she's just going to stay until Wednesday . And we leave Thursday for Tenn . She also asked to ride with me and go , and I said no .
Sunday night , my brother asks me to drive him to Illinois , then pick him up on the way to Tenn . He got in the previous day and is now asking to leave . The entire point of my family spending the money they don't have on a plane ticket to STL , is so he can spend time with me . And he asked me to drive him 2 and a half hours away to skip out . I don't answer , I pretend not to hear .
So , Monday comes around . I am already furious with the situation because he has been inconsiderate and she has been offending my friends . I wake up to a text from my father .
To fill anyone in , my father and I are not on bad terms , but we certainly aren't on good ones . He is not a good person . We have spoken once on the phone since I moved out of his house over a year ago . (I lived with him for two months , and it didn't work out) . We are not friends . And I do not like him .
"I'll be in your town by 3"
Another "fill in" . My father does not know that Johnathon and I are dating . My father thinks that I live in some crappy house , with crappy people in a crappy town just struggling to get by . I don't .
I am now livid . I ask questions about his plans , this is the first I have heard of this . He calls "Your brother and I made plans last week ."
So I go wake up my brother and ask him about it . "Well , dad said there's a chance he might not make it , so I didn't think it was a set plan ."
I want to strangle him . Idiot . so , I spend the entire morning (I have to go to work at five) cleaning my house . Deep cleaning and father-proofing . Then , I over-hear him talking to his friend in Illinois "Sorry , I can't make it because Jenica won't drive me ." So , I walk in and say "No , you cannot make it because you invited your father to my house to come see you ." And he says "Jenica's yelling at me , as usual" which nearly pushes me over the edge . Meanwhile , his little ex girlfriend is sitting with him with this smug look on her face and I want to tell her to get out .
Monday , afternoon , my father picks up my brother . I do not see him .
Danni the Devil / baby mamma starts trying to pick fights with me .
"So , I take it you guys worked everything out ?"
I say , "Yes , we're dealing with it ." She prys , hoping we will fight . She pokes , and she pokes .
Tuesday through Wednesday . My father does not speak to me or Johnathon . In fact , he ignores us . He and my brother are "BFFs" and down to have "deep" conversations and go out exploring , with his pathetic ex girlfriend following along like a sick puppy . They are down-right rude to Johnathon . He comes to my town and in to my house and will not even look at me .
I have begun calling my mother to rant , she helps and is furious with my brother .
Wednesday night , my father says goodbye . The ex left , which was a huge battle . I am at work and the idiot starts texting me again trying to see if she broke up me and Johnathon . So , I say , "Thanks so much for telling me everything , we got through it and we're better than ever ."
Which sends her in to a rage . Five page text messages about how Johnathon ruined her life and how she thought I would be different and "Lay down the law" . She will not listen when I say 1 ) i do not believe anything she said 2 ) he did not ruin her life and 3 ) I do not want drama .
Somehow in the middle of her "I wish I could still be with Johnathon but I am psychotic and I can't and he doesn't want me so I'm going to try and run his new girlfriend off" rant she says that it is hard for her to look at my facebook and see pictures and statuses of Lua on there . She is blocked . She cannot see my facebook . Her spies can though . I ignore that , because I am still trying to address that I do not want to talk about Johnathon anymore .
Oh , and guess what . My car gets hit . And they run . So far this is how my night has been . Go to work angry at brother and father , get informed that right outside of my work my car gets hit and the lady ran , get ridiculous text messages from the idiot , and have my father show up at work . I am starting to think , I will break . I am starting to think , I cannot take anymore .
So , I go home to see Johnathon and Lua . It is 930 , and Lua is awake =] There are plenty of people around her and she runs to me . She puts her arms around me . She is 11 months and she has hugged me . I am sitting on the floor and she runs over and climbs in to my lap . Words cannot explain how it feels . And finally , she gives me two kisses . Normally , she avoids eye contact so she avoids kisses . Or else she's too wound up to be still enough to give a kiss . But , she gave me two and it made me so happy . SO , I post this as a facebook status :
"Worst week ever , but a hug and kiss from Lua made it better ."
Then , we go to bed .
In the morning , we will leave for Tenn .
I wake up , so excited . I had been thinking though , and the fact that the idiot still thinks that Johnathon has done these things bothers me . So , before I leave I post a status that says that I do not believe the stories and I do not want them brought to me ever again . Literally , two minutes later I get a text , "Hey girl , I know this is random , but what does your status say ?"
So , I respond , "wow , two minutes ? This town is a joke ."
We get in to this huge fight , she pretty much tells me that I have to clear Lua from my myspace and facebook . I say no , I will not censor myself for anyone . She tells me that everyone thinks I'm pretending to have an "internet daughter" . I tell her I don't care what anyone thinks . She calls me names and tells me I'm rude . I tell her to leave me alone . She always has to have to last word so she waits a couple minutes and says "we'll make it easy then , Lua won't be around ."
And I say that is impossible because she is Johnathon's daughter and I am his girlfriend and Lua is my responsibility also . She hates that . Freaks out . So , I say "I am on vacation visiting family and do not wish to be disturbed . Please , do not contact me anymore ." So of course , to get the last word she says "all those things about Johnathon were true ! So shut your mouth about telling everyone they're stories ."
I get to Tenn and everything is perfect .
I check my Facebook and have recieved a message from one of her little drugee minions .
"Hey , girl !
I read your status and I just want to say that everything we told you was the truth.
I'm not trying to bring myself into your life or problems in anyway.
But there was not a single lie told.
And honestly that's cool that you and John worked things out.
I didn't tell you myself because I didn't think it was a big deal and I was hoping he did change this time.
But as me being a single mom myself, I can say I see where Danni is coming from with the Lua issue.
Not to mention I see her cry over it everyday.
and it's not something that someone should just "get over."
that baby is her life! and I know if I saw Jesse's girlfriend doing that with Miles I would be the same way.
I mean i know you love Lua.What's not to love about her.
it just really hurts Danni because she feels like your trying to take her place as a mother when she's struggling so hard to be the best mom she can for Lua Butt.
Please don't think I messaged you to be hateful or rude, I just thought maybe an outside opinion could help ease the situation.
If you and John plan to be together for a while or forever, then something has to get worked out because the tension isn't good for Lua.
I hope you guys have a safe and fun trip.See you at the LUA-LUAU :)"
WHORE . Every single sentence was either a lie or complete crap . I can actually respond to every single sentence and tell her why it is wrong and stupid . But , I didn't . I didn't respond . I blocked her too . And other people . The spies .
So , I get over that and have the best weekend ever . My family is amazing . Johnathon is amazing . I've never been so happy . My brother kept up being a manipulative jerk .
For my great grandmas birthday we had a family talent show . Johnathon and my brother picked a song , learned it and about ten minutes (tops !) before it was their turn my brother tells Johnathon he's not comfortable doing that song and is just going to do a Say Anything song . Which is completely inappropriate . Then , tells Johnathon he shouldnt have chickened out .
THEN , we all drive back together and stay in a hotel Saturday night , on Scott AFB in Illinois . Where the ex lives . My brother sneaks out , parents are furious . They may be sending him to live with my father .
Johnathon asks my mother for her approval , she gladly gets it . I feel incredible about that .
We go shopping and it has been a great day . We go to the zoo in STL and it sucked .
Some ignorant and animal-like black chick tried to fight us and started beating on our car because she screwed up parallel parking and couldnt do it because Johnathon had pulled up (we thought she was giving up because she pulled up two cars away .) So , I spent the entire day at the zoo worried that she was going to vandalise my car .
So , it was good to be home .
Things have calmed down , sort of . The idiot kicked me out of Lua's Luau birthday party she's throwing , which is fine with me . She has it turned in to a Danni party . She's having beer and inviting a lot of people who don't even know Lua exists . Then she's planning an after-party . For her daughters first birthday .
So , Johnathon and I are already planning on not going and having our own . Which is going to be a thousand times better for us than actually going because the idiot is psychotic . And apparently , I'm not supposed to acknowledge Lua anymore . Joke .
Johnathon and I got in a huge fight last night and I ran out . I took my dog and left . We've never fought like that before . It sucked , but he came after me crying and said he was sorry and we're good now .
This is like a weeks worth in one blog . If you actually read it , well thank you !
I am hoping things settle down now because for a minute there I didn't think I was going to make it .
