ranty rant .

So , I have today and tomorrow off .
I'm really excited because today my co-worker Angie is going to be colouring my hair .
If it turns out , I'll put up a picture .
I'm really not excited and pretty bummed because . . . .
we're going on food stamps .
It feels like the end of the world . I don't want to do this . At all .
I've never felt like I was the person who needed it . I think people
who are on it , need to need it .
But , last night Johnathon and I did the figuring and the math .
And there it was , plain as day .
We have to do it . I don't think we do , but he claims we do .
I guess when your bills outweigh your paychecks . . . well .
Ugh .

I believe in God and Jesus is my Saviour . I am a born again Christian .
But right now , I just feel like good people aren't getting what they deserve and the evil people are getting all the good things .
My relationship with Jesus has been suffering , I haven't been to church in years .
I know it needs work . But I also know Jesus will never let me go , and I haven't let Him go .
So what's happening ?
Not only am I not making enough to pay my bills , but every single paycheck something new happens .
We're good people . We don't lie , we don't cheat , we don't steal , we don't hurt other people . We avoid drama . We stay in our world and we don't poke into other's business . We enjoy our time with each other , we want whats best for everyone . We are peaceful and we keep to ourselves and we help others when they need it .
So , why is it that the evil people out there are getting all of our money .
Where's justice ? Angie says karma will come . She's Christian , but I know what she meant . I believe God is just and that it shouldnt make me feel better for the bad people to "get theirs" . But , I am really , really REALLY tired of seeing bad dogs get rewarded for their bad behavior .
baby mamma drama gets everything . Flat screen TV , new furniture , new NICE car , free repairs , and now 300 dollars of OUR money .
Johnathon cannot financially afford to be a father . He even said , since you're getting that much can you help out with diapers and food and she said no .
I am bitter right now .
Where in the world is justice ?


* EDIT

turns out , we aren't eligable for food stamps .