So , last night I got very brave and told Johnathon about my story . He asked to read it and said he'd give an honest critique . Which is so scary because he is a very critical person . He just knows what he likes and he knows the line between talent and faking it . And he's not afraid to be hard on something . But he loved it . He said it had a feeling of seclusion , which is exactly what I was going for . It made me feel so good because everything I was trying to acheive in writing , well apparently I did . I felt so connected with him too . Then he asked if Stevie could read it , his best friend and his brother . That made me feel even better .
I've been so frustrated lately . With myself . With what I am capable of . Which , according to me has been NOTHING . I try and take a picture , and it doesn't turn out . I try editing , and I am lost . I try and learn how to do something and I am completely lost . Everyone else can do things , why can't I ? Maybe I was just stressed . It went away though . I talked to a friend who was familiar with those feelings and she just encouraged me to keep going and it really helped . I hate feeling inferior . Maybe I am too hard on myself . Because in every single thing I do , I feel less than . Whether it be the way I dress , makeup , playing piano , writing , singing , photography , my intelligence . . . I feel inferior .
But , I am starting to get over that . Johnathon does a lot of positive things for me , and that is one of them .
I think I am done writing for now , I am starving !
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