Just another manic Monday .

I really need to get away . I can't deal with this stuff anymore . I am losing it and turning in to a person I don't want to be . I feel forced in to this . I have tried talking about things with friends and co-workers , but it only makes me sick to my stomach because we are helpless . This baby-mamma stuff is so stupid . Missouri is stupid . There are no rights for fathers . A mother can lie and steal and get everyone to kiss her feet , just because she has a vagina and got knocked up . She gets child support even if the father has the child too . She has full custody unless the father wants to pay 800 dollars to TRY and get JOINT custody , which she has to agree to and if she doesn't then your 800 dollars might as well be in a toilet somewhere . And if the father is persistent and tries to fight for his child and get full custody , the mother will be given a lawyer for free and he has to pay . And he'll never win . She could be on drugs or in rehab or whatever and she will keep her children .

So please tell me , how can someone protect theirselves from this ? How can a father who gives his all to his family be told he must pay 300 dollars to the malicious mother who honestly doesnt need it . She has no child expenses , even the lawyer agreed . I can't take this .

I need to get away . I feel like I am so attached that it's hurting me and I can't take this .
someone , come in and fix this .